Reward

I don't really reward myself; I mean usually when people achieved something, they or their parents would buy them something nice as a reward for them. Though, usually parents use this trick to act as a motivational factor.  Myself? Not really. Because for me, the result I have achieved is rewarding enough and the motivation? My motivation is simple, to be successful in the future. Common, but the thought of being successful is  strong enough to push me to the limit despite of the background I am living. My parent motivation? I don't ask much, food is enough for me. x)

I am a simple guy, I don't buy stuff unless its broken, but exceptional for clothes and attire la. Unless, it is necessary, then I would buy. Somehow, I have found a reason to reward myself, actually it can't be considered as a reason. But the fact of buying something out of my thoughts for myself, the "ahh finally once in your life, after so long,  you are buying something nice for yourself." straight came to my mind. So, I guess I am just lying to myself that this is the reward that has accumulated over the years. Haha. But the main reason I am "rewarding" myself is because of my sister; to keep in touch with her, to advise her, to keep her accompanied, to be there supporting her, to fulfilled what brothers are suppose to do. Yes, I may not know how to show it. But inside, I really do care. :)

 "laptop also can contact la", "don't waste money la". The naggings I got. Yes, laptop can contact, but it would be inconvenient to bring along with me all the time. Yes, it is wasting money, but, it is a necessary. I know how hard life is, I have realized that since long ago.. I know what I am doing.  I understand what you are trying to say, but sometimes, whats the point of living when you can't even do things that you want to do? Life is about relaxing and enjoying, not just earning and saving. :)

So no worries, I have planned through everything. I have my goals, targets, dream. I am aware of what are suppose to be done. I am trying my best.  All i need is support and love. :')